"神一般" Confession

Annyeong~! (^^)

Oh how long has it been since I last updated my blog??? I have so many things to say right now~! But before that...

SAENGILCHUKA, TAN SHI YEE-SHI~!

1st, I'll start with 'Gema Patriotik"~!
We made it through to the finals~!
However, due to the exams, we had little time to prepare for it, and by little time, I mean only 4 days~
It was a really, erm, nerve-racking time for us because we had to think of everything and get it perfect in 4 days~ We made use of weekends, spending at least 4 hours everyday at Justin's kindergarten practicing and rehearsing~
We used the "Teenage Dream" parody during the preliminary rounds and we know that now that it's finals we have to do something dynamic~ But how dynamic can we get when we only have 4 days of practice? And how much more dynamic can we be if were to compare ourselves to 4Sc2, and the other classes who had professional training and care~ In our hearts, we secretly thought to ourselves......

WE'RE SO FREAKING DOOMED~!

We may have been discouraged and stressed-out due to all the talented contenders that can take us out, but during the times we rehearsed, there was one thing we know we didn't lack at all ......

LAUGHTER~~~~~~

Every rehearsal was filled with laughter and support... and everything we did we did it with HEART <3 ~


The songs we chose were those we can relate to personality wise, we chose songs we'd be interested to sing in, and our closing act was a Disney movie's :
Demi Lovato's "We Can't Back Down" from Camp Rock~ 
We trained the hand signs and everything, and after receiving feedback and opinions from various people, including Tze Hao, Hwee Yee and Xin Een, we managed to make it all the more dynamic and patriotic <3 May Jee also thought of a formation which we had to bravely take the initiative to make the 1st step, with May Jee leading us solo,  and me and Xin Een to come out later~


Training was fun, we were still intimidated by the others, so I'm pretty sure we gave it all we got just to make it on stage... For everyone knows what a disaster we were during the "raptai" (sorry, I forgot what it's called in English~)


The day of the competition came and we arrived at school at 6am to prepare~ The others also looked really good, and when they were on stage they were great too. We were intimidated and nervous, but we knew we had to do our best, and remember that,
"Hey, maybe the others are better than we are, but I bet we had a more meaningful and happy time rehearsing than they did~!"  It came to a stage where we consoled ourselves with these happy memories we're so proud of, it came to a stage where we thought winning didn't matter, because we won each other in the process~ A sentimental bond was formed between the hearts of 4Sc1~ (^^)


Time flew by, we were 4th to perform~ Everyone was still nervous, and it also turned out pretty ugly because all of us couldn't find the tempo to the song. However, when we sang without music, hey, we sounded awesome and we had fun~! I don't wanna brag but, there are pretty good singers in 4Sc1. May Jee, Xin Een, Kah Kit, and even Rui Yuan was great (^^) ~! The others hardly sang off tune as well~ I'm so proud of you guys~!


Our surprise was the closing act, "We Can't Back Down". After opinions from everyone, we changed the lyrics into more patriotic ones, and fortunately enough I brought the Malaysian flag to enhance the feeling of the song~ MayJee led our pyramid formation, being the first to step out, followed by Xin Een and I, and the rest of the 1st row~ There came to a point where we looked like we were in a music video XD, and there was that part where we "hentak kaki" and "hormat" at the last note~ When I looked into XinYi's recording of our perfomance, I saw that everyone did it so magnificently and according to tempo that OMG, we looked like GLEE CLUB~! (>v<) Some told me that they were shaking when they saluted the audience, but MayJee claimed to have felt satisfaction, and I felt the same, putting on a broad smile at the end of our performance~ We also sang another song "Down" when we wanted to put our hands down and bowed at the last note~
YES~! We were satisfied~! We may not be as great as the others, but hey, do you know what it feels like to put on a show for you guys only after 4 days of practice?! Some even call this INSANE~! (^^)


When they announced the results, we were disappointed that Zhen Hong didn't win the "Best Conductor" award, because he was awesome in our eyes~ Several teachers were surprised too~ And sure we're still not happy about it right now, but hey, we're 16 years old and we don't keep little things at heart~
When they announced 3rd place to 2A2, we felt a little surprised because when we heard them rehearse, they seemed to have the most variety of vocals~ Going as far as giving us a super-high-pitched-soprano-like "Kita Satu Malaysia" ~ So we were kinda surprised.
We were even more surprised when 4Sc2 came 2nd, because they were obviously, more crowd-pleasing than we were (^^). And to tell you the truth, anyone in their right mind would have felt sorry for us because even we knew 4Sc2 did so much a good job compared to us~ We were like, despaired because if 4Sc2 is 2nd, where do we place? I went as far as considering Form 1 and Form 2 as the champions...


My tears burst out...
WHEN WE HEARD WE CAME 1ST~! I don't know why but I just couldn't stop it, I tried, but it didn't work~! It's like my faucet leaked (><) ~ And then that Sim Zheng Yee ar, recorded me crying for so long I didn't even notice...
Dear God... (= =) My image (>.<) That was the 1st time I ever cried tears of joy~ Oh boy~ What is wrong with me...


We were even happier during English Period because Miss Tan claimed that our "We Can't Back Down" made her cry~ We didn't understand why~ Maybe it's because we tried so hard, or maybe we poured feelings into our closing act... I just dunno... But it's great that our performance reached to someone and touched them...because honestly, all we thought we were doing was making fools out of ourselves (>.<)


And that's the end of the Gema Patriotik 2011, a memory that will forever be in our hearts~ (^^)


2nd, I'm in <3 with SUJU ar~!


Got pretty bored lately, so I went on Youtube watching variety shows, like 强心脏、综艺大哥大、黄金舞台 etc etc~ 过后就看到了圭贤超可爱的一幕啊~！看到什么我猜你猜的“蚌壳精”，他那个容易害羞，却又很努力的性格真的害我倾心了啦—！我也是名副其实会喜欢上有才华帅哥的女生，所以你说我会放过圭贤么？！
我会喜欢一个人，多半是先看性格，过后看才华，再看样貌。三样俱全的圭贤，我怎能不爱呢?

呵呵— 当然我也开始很喜欢SUJU了啦，可是圭贤依然拍第一啊~ 无论是SJ还是SJ-M，加上周觅和Henry这15位男生，我超爱圭贤，不过另外14个也当然不会忽略啦~ 反而，越看东海觉得他越可爱越酷越帅~ 所以佳瑜，虽然我是你的神一般的太完美情人，不过我允许你和东海的“地下情”~！啊哈~！XD

都靠圭贤的福，我接触到了很多东西，而且自己也越来越喜欢中文了~！“月亮代表我的心”这首歌，也越听越好听，就连韩国儿歌“Gom Se Mari”我也爱得不得了~！
电话里满都是SJ的东西（或许不比陈欣怡-shi、燕姐、神一般太完美情人吴佳瑜、语琳、银诗他们的多，不过本小姐在努力下载圭贤的可爱片段~ XD），刚刚在车上给妈妈看到一个圭贤扮可爱然后害羞的录影，我妈看了都觉得他可爱~！哇哈哈！成就感~ :P

嗯哪嗯哪，还有就是SJ的Mini Drama，好多“Bromance”，萌死我~！圭贤你太帅了！还有艺声+利旭keopeul好可爱哦—！哇哈哈！笑死我~！还有一个叫Flowerboys，可怜的帅哥们被泼糞呀—— 呀圭贤，还好那个Mini Drama你不在~ (><)

我的动漫派partners们，听着哦！我会痴圭贤不代表我会把动漫都忽略掉呀~！毕竟动漫是我的灵魂、我的根~！动漫把我树立成今天的我，我绝对不会如忘掉豆皮的小豆！（哇，好直接的翻译~~ XD）更何况啊，我是1/4韩血，1/4和血，一次喜欢动漫帅哥又喜欢韩国帅哥并不是不可能哦~ 哎哎，毕竟我是非凡的女人嘛—— （对不，Lee Michelle? XD）

“……”

啮~~ 不知我说我是1/4韩血、1/4和血有谁会信呢？你们信么？XD

好啦，不要多说了~

哦呀！告诉你们个好消息~！ 我的Physics进步啊，多么一个美好的奇迹~
哎哎，神一般的我……真的太神了~！XD （呜哇~~神一般的自恋啊~ 哈哈！）

还有，那天我生日，我们的圭贤二号（Shun）通过FB message祝我生日快乐啊—— 虽然不是正版圭贤，也还是圭贤二号~ <3 请给我暗爽一下下啦~ :P

Ok 啦，打字都打得累了~
再一次祝我们神一般的陈欣怡一个神一般快乐的生日~！
Saengilchuka, 陈欣怡-shi~~! <3
希望我也可以成为像你一样忠实的SJ迷 (哈哈！）~！
前辈请多多指教~！

1/2 4Sc1 Holiday Practice~

A 3 min 27 second video of a few of us during the practice on the holiday Monday~

A DAY TO REMEMBER~! <3

"Won't you be my sweetest dream for life?"

有美琪，有团结……

温馨是灿烂的笑……

ELF团 + 颜慧玉

May Jee during the practice on Monday

It's the start of August, and I've recently turned 16~ Aside from discovering my new found passion for archery (thanks to bestie Jessie Tan), I've gathered quite a few depressed emotions of low self-esteem and paranoia of being alone... However, I won't get to that cause I'm quite cured now, thanks to Nii-sama who was there for me when I was this close to an emotional breakdown...

August, Summer, a hot, busy month. Exams are enclosing (not that I'm doing much to face it), a lot of classes to attend, a lot of homework to be done (I don't sleep earlier than 12am anymore~) and then there's... Gema Patriotik.

We've had Gema Patriotik for 2 years now. Aside from it taking up a lot of my time and effort, whether it's victory of loss, I felt distant enough from the class to not care. When it's over, it's over. And there's no way we'd be able to sing something in tune, we've NEVER done that for the past two years~ I always thought Gema Patriotik would be one of those things that didn't mean anything... It's one of those activities a school holds for no purposeful reason... I, honestly, never liked it... And why would I think otherwise this year, right?

We started practicing for Gema 2 weeks before the actual competition (which is actually TODAY) but really only started intense practice 1 week before today~ During the start, I seriously, hated it. Because again, it took my time and energy, and with the homework load mountain high lately, I didn't need any extra time taken from me... I practiced, for sure. People CAN sing unhappy, and I am one of those people...
This went on for days and days, Math period, Bio period, any extra time they can find, we practice. Well, it's not like I was reluctant every time, sure to me it was something I needed to do because THEY wanted to, but when there's no homework to be done, I really don't mind skipping lessons for Gema Patriotik. May Jee would be guiding us with all her might, coaching us, coming up with ideas for us to perform. She'd crack jokes, and do really ridiculous, funny stuff. Mm, that is expected from her, since she's always cheerful and full of life~ She was the kind of person who shines into your heart and leaves a ray of light. This might sound sentimental, but it really is true. Because every time she does something, I sense "original MayJee-ness" and that makes me want to smile. XD

She came up with so many great ideas, some even too big for us to handle. XD
Whether she got inspiration from cheerleading, choral speaking, Glee, anything! She made sure it was comfortable for all of us. She listened to our opinions wholeheartedly, and had all of us decide what was best for the performance. It wasn't just "her way", it was OUR WAY~  Why did she spend so much time doing so many stuff for us when we've pretty much given up hearing how great 4Sc2 were? Hmm, and then I realized just how special she was, and how special she could make this year be, since with so many opinions from so many people, it was gonna be a fusion of 40++ people, it was really an ORIGINAL "OUR WAY" ~ The 4Sc1 Way~ And then I thought to myself : "This is the way it's supposed to be."
I gradually made myself open up, and I tried to help as much as I can, considering how much a jerk I've always been (><). I was clear how little help I was, yet I really wanted to make this thing happen! True, it could be that up until today my contribution is the size of a peanut, and I DO feel guilty about it, but truly... the times during practice were beautiful~ Everyone supported each other and hmm, it actually did bring us together, me + Shi Yee + Hui Ru I mean~ You see sides of people you've never known, and for all you know, you'd like them even more for it.. At least, it's like that for me, I really do like Shi Yee and Hui Ru very much! (><) I gradually opened up further and helped May Jee with the parody (Teenage Dream), considering I can only do that much (^^")... But the others were opening up and helping too... like that Monday (a public holiday), when all of us (actually 20++ of us) came to school for practice~ (like in the photos)

Did you see the photos? Did you see what kind of person she is? To have us all listening attentively, to have us oblige to by will? Did you see the smiles on our faces? May Jee was that special a girl...and the only reason I took those photos was because I wanted to remember such happy times, and remember, "Wow, this girl changed my perception of Gema Patriotik~!" It's true that being with them, 4Sc1, makes you feel such indescribable happiness and acceptance. Hmm, and I'm beginning to accept that...with the right people, Gema  Patriotik ain't half bad~ ( > 3<)

Anyway, today was the competition... We came to school at 6a.m., although I did reach several minutes late (I do suffer from insomnia and I'm tired...) And do you know how many people reached around that time too...? 20++ people. How did 20 people find the resolve to come to school at such an early time for practice? Who does that??? (^^) People like us, of course, those who felt that connection and the happiness of teamwork... We practiced for a long time... though it all still seemed imperfect, it was almost time for competition, and so we made our way to the front of 3A5... One by one the classes performed, and we came closer to the platform and stage~

The time came when we made our way to the stage (which Nii-sama claims as his 2nd home). We looked to the left the whole time before receiving orders from Xian Wei to turn... 1,2 turn! We turned, faced the audience, and gained a round of applause?! Mwo?!?! Jinja?!?! Seriously, we haven't done anything yet!
We bowed, looked up, supposedly at the audience, but all of us know our eyes were fixed on our awesome conductor Seah Zhen Hong, whose talent has been recognised OVER AND OVER ~ ! It's true, I didn't realize until I got down from stage, but the whole time I was on stage, I couldn't tell who was in the audience, because I was only looking at the conductor. The anxiety, was so great, you wouldn't want to see anybody but him... We all put our faith in him, after all... (^^)

He brought us to the high pitches and low pitches with flawless tempo (although we were somewhat... flawful~ XD), and managed to get us to do everything so ... "harmoniously"~ Whether it was "Tanggal 31" itself, or the "Teenage Dream Parody" (which really caught others' attention XD), or "We <3 Malaysia" parts~ We were like targeting guns, locking our eyes on him, and he brought us there, just like all of us wanted to... It's like we're in practice again, and we knew that all we had to do was trust him... When he asked us to smile, nobody can defy, because we knew and we remembered, that we trust him, after all... NOTHING CAN GO WRONG with Zhen Hong as conductor (^^).

Things went better than expected, and before we knew it, our performance was over. And when we got an applause right after the end, it just made us all the more satisfied with ourselves, knowing we grabbed some attention and earned some of it to the finish... Right then, I dunno what I felt, but it was as though there was warmth in the heart, and your face feels so light you can wear a smile for hours~ You felt like launching your arms to hug your friends... That kind of happiness and satisfaction... Where did it come from? To be this happy before even knowing the results, it's ridiculous, but it is a happiness never felt before...

The smiles stayed on our faces for the whole day, and the weather was so nice it was like a gift to complement our feelings~ Pictures and memories were captured and taken, some engraved into the heart... My heart, at least.

If I were with any other, it's most unlikely to feel such happiness...
4Sc1, thanks so much for giving me a whole new life-changing experience~

Who would have thought, teamwork, modesty and a little bit of faith could push us so far, and make us feel so satiated?

Let's fight till the very end together,
HWAITING~! 

"You've got every right to a beautiful life ~~ "

Attention: When you start reading my blog, play this video first and read it while listening. You'll understand what I'm trying to convey better.

Was supposed to go to school today but I fell so ill I couldn't get out of bed... This is the first time I've felt this sick : FLU + COUGH + FEVER + GASTRIC + MIGRAINE ain't a good combination ... (==) You have no idea how wretched I feel... In fact, I've only just woken up 4 hours ago...

However, being stuck in bed has given me lots to think about...

I haven't left the room, or my bed for that matter, and it's not like I have much entertainment, plus it was raining too, so I cuddled in my bed and then my mind floated off somewhere...

...*...*...*...*...*...*

This might sound obsessive or whatever, but I actually thought about Shun again... (><) At times when I'm down and helpless like this, I actually took his letter and just stared at it... The words didn't register into my mind at all, it was as though I was just looking at it and observing the strokes of his words... My lack of consciousness made my mind wander away with just the help of the drips and drops of the lovely July shower, and soon before I knew it... My soul time-traveled back to 2 months ago...

I remembered that Wednesday when he first set foot on the school grounds, how the whole school started screaming and how the girls of my class became so excited... I remembered seeing Pn.Ong's expression when my classmates started screaming, I remembered how I couldn't see him because I was short-sighted :P But most of all, I remembered how cool I was NOT CARING.

I could still hear my own voice at Eng Choon Block that recess, at the balcony right opposite the Form 1 classes... I could still remember Yeo-san introducing us to each other, with Shun standing so close, just in front of me... I could remember his face and outlines so clearly, I could remember the first words "Yoroshiku" that came out of my mouth. I saw his startled face for the first time when I did a 90 degee bow. He bowed back and muttered the same words to me, and I was so delightfully happy he actually understood me... That little bit of confidence I gained from that day still lives inside me up till now...

And then, my mind reached it's next destination —— the memories of the first Japanese class I attended with him. I still remembered that it was a Tuesday, because we had so much fun watching the younger kids do a role play... Yeo-san considered me a "senpai" ("sunbae" in Korean, “学长” in Chinese, "senior" in English) because of my...longer experience with the language than any other person in my class and threw me to Shun's side (Oh My God, I was abandoned! >< ), thus forcing me to sit with him and converse with him. I remembered telling myself :

"Oh Lord, kill me now... (==)"

I remembered bestie Lee Michelle blaming me for leaving her... But I guess I did stay with him a little too long... (><)

However that Tuesday didn't go as bad as I thought it would. It was really awkward at first, but then there was that dried leaf that floated into the classroom and onto the centre of our tables, which we curiously stared at for several seconds, which actually, lightened up our moods with a bit of laughter (^^) Thank you, Happa-san (葉-san XD) !

I remembered how absent-minded and innocently 'me' I was. I was that girl that he remembered for laughing and smiling a lot, that girl who ripped leaves when she was nervous, that girl who was forever curious and talking to herself a lot... (><) All in all, he remembered me because I was... an awkward idjit (idiot)... But if that's how I became memorable, shouldn't I be lucky I AM this way? That was what I've been thinking about this whole afternoon, when I was stuck in bed...

Come to think about it... Didn't Nii-sama also became friends with me because of how STUPID I was last year? Didn't everyone become friends with me because of how true I was to myself? Wasn't life so much easier and meaningful because they accepted me for me?
According to astrology and horoscopes, Leos are... yes, bossy, prideful, leader-ish, but we're also sincere when it comes to feelings, and just like how the manes on the lions are so big and obvious, like the sun, we also have a flair in being bright and vivid and making people smile...
If I really have this ability, why on Earth do I feel that I have to envy other people's lives and wish I could be like them?

Because I was still like when I was Std 1, I still had friends like Yee Wen and Yin Geok.

Because I was straightforward and honest, and sometimes easy to fool (hence Khin Yew fooled me into revealing my crush during std 4), I had friends like Khin Yew.

Because we shared a heart and a brain; we were same yet different, I had friends like Jessie.

Because I was so much like the girl that leads shoujo mangas and naturally had a flair of making people smile, I had friends like Nii-sama, Lee Michelle, Chern Hou, XinYi, Rima and Rui Yuan...

Because I so easily opened up and approached all that are trustworthy, I had friends like Ann-ie and Jia Yih~ (^^)

and...

because I spoke his language and tried my best for him, Shun remembers me up till the last day he stayed here.

So what am I still unsatisfied about?
If I were anyone else, maybe I wouldn't have had such good friends.
If I were anyone else, maybe I would have grown up to be a total bitch.
If I were anyone else, maybe I wouldn't have known Japanese, neither their language or culture.
If I were anyone else, maybe I'd never have watched Bleach and I'd never have my Nii-sama.
If I were anyone else, maybe I would have went to a different school and I'd never have the friends I have now.
If I were anyone else, maybe I wouldn't have had any memories with Shun at all...

You see, life is what you make it. Everything that has been going on with your life is all the consequences from your own actions and decisions, and how you make the best out of your life. It's true that life's sometimes bitter and you might have regrets, hey, even I do, but just think... If you were anyone else, you could have been much worse.
Maybe if you were someone else, you would have been less loved?
Maybe if you were someone else, you'd never have people you could trust?
Life may be bitter, but I'm sure all of us have made decisions that have brought us happiness, right?

Well, I dunno if I managed to convey anything, but one thing's for sure...

I'm sure there's many things, you'd like to change about yourself, but when it comes to me, I wouldn't wanna be anybody else... 

Someday, all of you, should be able to sing this...

纯情 Romance

Annyeong~ It's been hell a long time since I've last updated my blog haven't I? Well, nothing can be done. I was pretty busy with all the consecutive sport events and extra classes after all...

If you guys check your calendars, you'll see that this post is dated 6th of July, which happens to be Shun's last day in Malaysia. I wonder if you guys remember? (^^) Yes well, I haven't seen him for a long time now, although he came to my class for his 1st and last English period with us. I suppose it was fun, although it was embarrassing for me, being the translator and all. Fortunately it was only for a short few minutes (^^), but overall I had fun because we didn't have homework :P

*sighs* Listen, there's no point in making this post all smiles and laughter because I pretty much lost that flair a long time ago... It's July, and I'm supposed to be glad that my birthday is coming and all... and I'm also really touched that my Nii-sama remembers my birthday so accurately, but I just don't know why, at times, my whole life just feels so empty. I feel like a soulless vessel, hollow and meaningless... I could be smiling and cracking jokes a moment before, and then feel so lonely after. It's as though everything in my life has suddenly been whirled away, and for those long torturing moments, I can hardly feel anything at all... I used to be able to know I wanted to cry, I used to know what a smile from the heart felt like... now I'm oblivious to my own life. It's like a sudden blackout, when I can see nothing, and I get so scared... Does any of you even know what it feels like? To not be able to feel anything???

A few days ago, I started to wonder if this had anything to do with Shun going back to where he belongs... I always felt that him being here, was, unreal to me. His existence was like, when I read a comic book... I knew from the start he was real, real enough for me to be able to spent wonderful times with him, but aside from all of that, he was still, ethereal~ I took the past 2 months as a dream, a dream I can just wake up from the next morning and act like everything was back to normal... But maybe, have I gotten attached?

That leaf that flew in from the window...

The first laugh I heard from him....

All the smiles we shared...

And all the fun times he wanted to have with me,

The memories he wanted to remember about me...

They were all supposed to be... a dream, a fantasy I could wake up from... But with things as it is now, I'm trying so hard to wake up when I subconsciously might not want to... At times like this I feel selfish enough to the extent of wishing he could stay HERE. I want to feel

THE EXCITEMENT....

THE ANXIETY....

THE HAPPINESS...

THE JEALOUSY...

I want to feel it all, because at least I could feel myself feeling something... I want it all. When my heartbeat starts racing and my cheeks turn bright red... no, they don't feel good, but it so beats feeling nothing......

So am I actually blue about him leaving...? Didn't I know that he would leave from the start?
No, perhaps him leaving ain't the issue here...
It's probably this yearning for him to stay here, it's probably the regret of not having enough courage when I was around him, it's probably the hatred I feel towards myself for changing when the old me was what got us closer in the first place...

I was relaxed. Easy. Lively. Innocent.
I was... a better person.
I just don't get why I changed when the old me was so true and real with him. I don't get why I changed, I don't get how I changed... But I became so passive and so shy, everything I said turned out to be the shortest sentence I've ever spoken to someone... There were so many things I wanted to say to him, but something kept me from doing so... Something made me so self conscious, something made me feel I was an idiot in his presence, something made me feel so scared he was going to hate such a foolish me, something stopped me from talking to him... I kept quiet, I kept all I wanted to say IN, for 2 months......

I realized this lack of courage wasn't going to do me any good, so 2 days ago, I wrote him a letter...

I thought, since this was the last time I'll ever get to tell him anything again, I might as well pour out all my thoughts in that letter... Besides, I'm at my best when I have my pen... It was difficult for me, cause I kept thinking of how it'd be a hindrance, and a pain for him to read because...my Japanese ain't perfect, but I gave it my all... Who cares if the letter showed how stupid I was! It wasn't like he's ever going to see me again... Maybe one day we'll look back and laugh at my stupidity... (^^) I poured out my soul into that letter, baked for him, and went to the temple for him... If the letter doesn't convey anything, I was hoping at least my prayers would be with him.

Maybe the regrets of me just admiring him from afar for 2 whole months would continue to haunt me for years and years to come, but in the end I did try to do something...

I know, when he goes back tomorrow, my life would be back to normal...
(Well, it doesn't look very normal now does it?)
*sighs* I never liked saying goodbyes, especially when there's no chance of meeting again. So, lemme just say :

Goodnight...
I'll miss you...
But it's time, I woke up...

Back To School~

Annyeonghaseyo! (^^) Well, it was the 1st day of school today~ Miraculously, my mum managed to bring me there pretty early today and I met up with my "yeon-in" (恋人）—— 吴佳瑜 right after I reached the school~ <3
It's been 14 days since I last saw my friends, it's really great to see them all again, but that just means one thing: the 2nd school semester starts now... *sighs*

Anyway, the new school principal came today. It was a "she" actually, from afar, I thought I saw Sejarah teacher, Pn Soh :P I hear she's pretty strict and everything, but I gotta say, she's got the "principal-esque" style~ White long sleeved blouse and a black skirt, and her hair was like...curled and then tied into a ponytail. Seriously, if you watched English Movies in the 90-s, that was pretty much what she looked like, "90-s English principal-esque", which was pretty awesome actually~
I eventually saw the Choral Speaking performance today that everyone was working hard for, I believe it is okay, though I couldn't really hear part of their speech, but they did nail "SUPERMUM" well~ :P I don't know, it's just a little weird...good, but weird. (><) Oh! However Zhen Hong was pretty awesome as conductor! (^^) Well, that's what you'd expected from someone who's been a conductor all his life right? Damn, he was SOOOOO AWESOME! <3

Hmm~ After the performance, we went back to class, changed our seats. You know, it's pretty much something to look forward to every few weeks when we change our seats~ The rotation enables us to sit with new people every few cycles~ Today, apparently, I get the seat below the fan, yeah! :P Ah~ and on my right side is Yee Wen. Sure brings back memories for when we used to sit together in elementary school~ (^^) They were childish, good memories though~ I dunno why, but we used to talk about "Super Mario", haha... And then there were several English songs that we sang together... and there was that worm thing we used to talk about... WHAT THE HELL WAS UP WITH THAT? (==) ... Anyway, when you look back, those times were pretty awesome. And back in the elementary school days, there was always a constant rotation of the 1st, 2nd and 3rd place between Yin Geok, Me and Yee Wen~ Haiz, why can't high school be as easy as elementary school? (T^T) ... Whoa! Come to think of it, I've been in the same class with Rachel and Yee Wen for 10 years now! That, in some way, has gotta be cool!

Anyway, the timetable for today has changed, so the 1st period was BC, but the whole class didn't bring any Chinese books. The teacher got pissed off and had us do our own things, and then... the TEST PAPERS of DOOM were launched at us~~ You know just how doomed you are once you get your papers~ ( = 3=) Anyway, me and Yee Wen were like super chuak, and I was so scared I waited 5 minutes before actually looking at my marks. I stared at the back of my exam paper, and Yee Wen was like
"你看了吗？"
Me：“还没有——！(><)”
I finally summoned up my courage and flipped the paper to reveal my marks... it was... an inverted 99 —— 66！（T^T）Oh well~ At least it was better than the 64% I got last time... But... that was just part of the paper~ There was another paper we tested for, which was to be combined with the paper I received just now and divide it by 2 (I think...). That's how we get the actual marks. I waited anxiously for the other paper to reach me... In the end I got...... another 66% (==) What's the point of adding 66% to 66% and dividing it by 2 if the marks is still gonna be 66% ANYWAY! Hence, the conclusion is:
Bahasa Cina = 66% (T^T)
Oh well... better than 64%... I'm thankful enough.

After BC, we had BM... (T^T)... Like I said, I couldn't finish my Paper 2, but...! Miraculous enough, many people didn't do so well even though they finished it, and so it was just the same whether I finished my paper or not. *sighs* Although...how do I tell my parents I got a 59% for BM? (TT) Why couldn't it have been a 60% at least?! It would have made the message much easier to convey... Oh, why did I get Gokudera's number?

After BM was Chemistry~ Another subject I suck in... though I suck in Physikos' most~ (!@#$%^&* Physics!) Good enough, I got an 84%~ :P Lucky me lar! Considering I read manga when I study! :P
We had an early recess, and after recess was our Maths~ I know I wouldn't fail Math so I was a bit relaxed. I got a 94% because of careless mistakes, and my "formula-less but full of answers" Venn Diagram... Damn... Oh well, at least I actually got something with a 9 as the first digit... (T^T) So happy!

Sejarah was next... The quizzes Pn Soh gave us helped a lot so I wasn't too worried. I got a 91% <3 though the highest mark was 100%~ Sugoi ne~~ 羡慕-ing... But 91% ain't so bad. I could have got 94% but I had 2 careless mistakes at the objective section... Hell, thinking back truly MAKES ME WANNA CRY! (TT TT) If only I was a bit more careful!

After Sejarah, we had our last period for the day —— BIO!!! Bio has gotta be the best Science I'm in! Although my best doesn't mean I'm SUPER awesome in it~ ( = 3=) *sighs*
Anyway, I got an 84%, that's gotta signify something right? It's an A, not an A+, whatever! It's still an A ! This is as far as I can go to console myself for going to flunk Physics and getting a stupid 59% for my BM~ I feel guilty towards my tuition teacher. But it's not that I dunno how to do, I just don't have the time!
(TT) ...Oh, as though explaining would make me feel better... *mushrooms in a corner* Oh yeah! Yee Wen got a freakin' 93% for his Bio! That was SO, TOTALLY INSANE! He is awesome! (><)

So, my latest records are:
BC : 66%
Chem: 83%
BM: 59%
MM: 94%
SEJ: 91%
BIO: 84%

(><) Well, as thrilling as it was to get my test results today, sitting with Yee Wen brought back sweet elementary school memories, and seeing that we can still get along makes me all the more happier :P We talked about the past a bit, and I even found out that Zhen Hong, Hui Si, Yee Wen and I were originally nominated for 模范生 during elementary school! Although ZhenHong and HuiSi were chosen at last... Talking to him, it's like the good old days, only now I'm not 6, I'm 16! （^^）I wonder what made us grow separate seeing as we were such close friends back in the days and we can still be... Hmm, I dunno~ All I know is, reliving childhood memories...doesn't seem so bad after all.

Hey old friends, new friends, seriously:
Friends Forever ya??? (^^)

Goodbye, Holidays~

Remember how I almost died during the 2 weeks of exams and how I was brought back to life with 2 weeks of holidays? Yeah well... Today's the last day of my 14-day break, so tomorrow, it'll be back to school again... (TT) ... Hmm, maybe I should smile considering Shun's gonna be our classmate starting tomorrow?

Anyway, I didn't do much with my holidays. Aside from doing chores OCCASIONALLY, I spend ALL of my time in front of the computer screen checking out hot guys :P ... Okay, not hot guys, hot anime guys, ok? I also used one day to re-watch all of Sekaiichi Hatsukoi （世界一初恋），a really SUPER anime NOT for random kids to watch, although...there's nothing wrong with watching it no matter what age you are really~ All I know is it's a real eye-candy for Fujoshis' （腐女子）, people like me. ...... Yeah yeah, judge away~

Now, aside from Haruka Minami, I suppose there is another awesome mangaka I love --- Takatsuki Noboru! He/She (not sure ><) illustrated the images for "Hanamachi Monogatari", a Japanese game I most recently played (wanted to play the Chinese version, but there were download problems = 3=). OMG!!! Shuri （朱璃）!!! <3 <3 <3 I don't believe it~ Now that the hols are over, there's no way I'd get chances to play it now, could I? (T^T) Oh Shuri~~ *sobs sobs* "We must now part, though I will be with you soon, my love~" ...... Okay, that was too much Shakespeare... *clears throat*
Anyway!!! I bought another set of manga, illustrated by Takatsuki Noboru (Chara Cafe Relish ni Oide) It was...kinda worth it, I guess. (^^)
And so, you pretty much know what I've been doing for 14 days~

Okay, yesterday (Saturday), was like... I dunno, the most expensive day of my life. In the morning, they woke me up...at 11am... (yes, I don't get out of bed as long as I'm hugging my bolster, because it's so soft and fluffy, I love it!) *hugs bolster* (>u<), and then the whole family went to Aeon Jusco... for HOT POT! <3 There is nothing I love more than seafood, soup and "kinoko"! I LOVE MUSHROOMS!After we were done with the CHOU-AWESOME (超awesome) meal, I went to Comic Paradise ... (hoping to buy manga? XD ) ... and ended up getting hit-on by random guys I dunno (= 3=)... They were like "Sexy ar~~", I pretended as though I wasn't listening. ... Maybe it was my fault for wearing those jean shorts... ( = 3=) They WERE pretty short... But I love them! (><)

I ended up not buying anything from Comic Paradise because there weren't any of my favourite mangakas' work and I've read most of the manga~ (Hmm, even Joshua knows I'm a manga-maniac XD). I went to Nokia Store with my mum and saw a super beautiful Nokia N8!
I was like "OMG! This is so pretty!"
My mum: "What's this?"
Me: "I dunno, but IT'S PRETTY!"
The salesman approached us and showed us the functions of N8, and honey, you practically don't need a laptop or a TV if you have N8! I mean, you can watch videos online (I mean TV3, 8TV and things), take clear pics with the 12MP camera, plus the video application is like watching TV in HD, SERIOUSLY! My mum fell in love with the handphone, eventhough I wanted it, and bought it for herself.
I was like "I saw it first. You walked right past it searching for an Iphone!"
My mum laughed and went on to buy the phone, and I was sulking... because N8 is awesome okay?! ... My mum then asked me to check out the others, that was cheaper than hers... I went around playing eveything in the store, and then decided on Nokia E5. I mean, she doesn't know my results yet, and I know my results might be "failing marks", so out of guilt, I just chose E5, since I'm still young and using my mum's money. It'd be really...irresponsible to just have her buy things so expensive for me. So...my mum bought me the E5 (^^).
I love you, mummy! <3
I swear I'll work hard! (^^)

Okay, I wanna sell my Nokia 6120. I bought it around RM400, so I think I'll sell for RM150?
- It's pink, and it's not very pretty, but I think you can change the casing.
- I've never dropped my phone before, and it's in good condition (cause I take care of it so well ma~~ XD).
- It comes with a charger, earphones, USB cable (for PC to HP download and vice versa) + manual.
- 2MP Camera (but really good) + a secondary camera for easy 自拍-ing + Memory Card slot (which means  it can support nGB memory card)
- Functions include dictionary, music player, Real player, Adobe, recorder, IMChat, radio, Flash player. There's also Internet access but I don't quite like it lar.

...This was me during the holidays...

I'd upload a picture of my Nokia 6120 someday, but now I'm just too busy (><)

Had a fun time chatting with my Nii-sama today (^^) It's been such a long time since we've talked. Love ya~ <3

Also, facing timetable probs... Dunno which schedule should be used tomorrow...? (><)

Argh~ My bedtime is almost here.
Tomorrow's back to school!
No... My results... (T^T) NO!!!!!!

*sob sob*

Goodbye, Holidays...