"神一般" Confession

Annyeong~! (^^)

Oh how long has it been since I last updated my blog??? I have so many things to say right now~! But before that...

SAENGILCHUKA, TAN SHI YEE-SHI~!

1st, I'll start with 'Gema Patriotik"~!
We made it through to the finals~!
However, due to the exams, we had little time to prepare for it, and by little time, I mean only 4 days~
It was a really, erm, nerve-racking time for us because we had to think of everything and get it perfect in 4 days~ We made use of weekends, spending at least 4 hours everyday at Justin's kindergarten practicing and rehearsing~
We used the "Teenage Dream" parody during the preliminary rounds and we know that now that it's finals we have to do something dynamic~ But how dynamic can we get when we only have 4 days of practice? And how much more dynamic can we be if were to compare ourselves to 4Sc2, and the other classes who had professional training and care~ In our hearts, we secretly thought to ourselves......

WE'RE SO FREAKING DOOMED~!

We may have been discouraged and stressed-out due to all the talented contenders that can take us out, but during the times we rehearsed, there was one thing we know we didn't lack at all ......

LAUGHTER~~~~~~

Every rehearsal was filled with laughter and support... and everything we did we did it with HEART <3 ~


The songs we chose were those we can relate to personality wise, we chose songs we'd be interested to sing in, and our closing act was a Disney movie's :
Demi Lovato's "We Can't Back Down" from Camp Rock~ 
We trained the hand signs and everything, and after receiving feedback and opinions from various people, including Tze Hao, Hwee Yee and Xin Een, we managed to make it all the more dynamic and patriotic <3 May Jee also thought of a formation which we had to bravely take the initiative to make the 1st step, with May Jee leading us solo,  and me and Xin Een to come out later~


Training was fun, we were still intimidated by the others, so I'm pretty sure we gave it all we got just to make it on stage... For everyone knows what a disaster we were during the "raptai" (sorry, I forgot what it's called in English~)


The day of the competition came and we arrived at school at 6am to prepare~ The others also looked really good, and when they were on stage they were great too. We were intimidated and nervous, but we knew we had to do our best, and remember that,
"Hey, maybe the others are better than we are, but I bet we had a more meaningful and happy time rehearsing than they did~!"  It came to a stage where we consoled ourselves with these happy memories we're so proud of, it came to a stage where we thought winning didn't matter, because we won each other in the process~ A sentimental bond was formed between the hearts of 4Sc1~ (^^)


Time flew by, we were 4th to perform~ Everyone was still nervous, and it also turned out pretty ugly because all of us couldn't find the tempo to the song. However, when we sang without music, hey, we sounded awesome and we had fun~! I don't wanna brag but, there are pretty good singers in 4Sc1. May Jee, Xin Een, Kah Kit, and even Rui Yuan was great (^^) ~! The others hardly sang off tune as well~ I'm so proud of you guys~!


Our surprise was the closing act, "We Can't Back Down". After opinions from everyone, we changed the lyrics into more patriotic ones, and fortunately enough I brought the Malaysian flag to enhance the feeling of the song~ MayJee led our pyramid formation, being the first to step out, followed by Xin Een and I, and the rest of the 1st row~ There came to a point where we looked like we were in a music video XD, and there was that part where we "hentak kaki" and "hormat" at the last note~ When I looked into XinYi's recording of our perfomance, I saw that everyone did it so magnificently and according to tempo that OMG, we looked like GLEE CLUB~! (>v<) Some told me that they were shaking when they saluted the audience, but MayJee claimed to have felt satisfaction, and I felt the same, putting on a broad smile at the end of our performance~ We also sang another song "Down" when we wanted to put our hands down and bowed at the last note~
YES~! We were satisfied~! We may not be as great as the others, but hey, do you know what it feels like to put on a show for you guys only after 4 days of practice?! Some even call this INSANE~! (^^)


When they announced the results, we were disappointed that Zhen Hong didn't win the "Best Conductor" award, because he was awesome in our eyes~ Several teachers were surprised too~ And sure we're still not happy about it right now, but hey, we're 16 years old and we don't keep little things at heart~
When they announced 3rd place to 2A2, we felt a little surprised because when we heard them rehearse, they seemed to have the most variety of vocals~ Going as far as giving us a super-high-pitched-soprano-like "Kita Satu Malaysia" ~ So we were kinda surprised.
We were even more surprised when 4Sc2 came 2nd, because they were obviously, more crowd-pleasing than we were (^^). And to tell you the truth, anyone in their right mind would have felt sorry for us because even we knew 4Sc2 did so much a good job compared to us~ We were like, despaired because if 4Sc2 is 2nd, where do we place? I went as far as considering Form 1 and Form 2 as the champions...


My tears burst out...
WHEN WE HEARD WE CAME 1ST~! I don't know why but I just couldn't stop it, I tried, but it didn't work~! It's like my faucet leaked (><) ~ And then that Sim Zheng Yee ar, recorded me crying for so long I didn't even notice...
Dear God... (= =) My image (>.<) That was the 1st time I ever cried tears of joy~ Oh boy~ What is wrong with me...


We were even happier during English Period because Miss Tan claimed that our "We Can't Back Down" made her cry~ We didn't understand why~ Maybe it's because we tried so hard, or maybe we poured feelings into our closing act... I just dunno... But it's great that our performance reached to someone and touched them...because honestly, all we thought we were doing was making fools out of ourselves (>.<)


And that's the end of the Gema Patriotik 2011, a memory that will forever be in our hearts~ (^^)


2nd, I'm in <3 with SUJU ar~!


Got pretty bored lately, so I went on Youtube watching variety shows, like 强心脏、综艺大哥大、黄金舞台 etc etc~ 过后就看到了圭贤超可爱的一幕啊~！看到什么我猜你猜的“蚌壳精”，他那个容易害羞，却又很努力的性格真的害我倾心了啦—！我也是名副其实会喜欢上有才华帅哥的女生，所以你说我会放过圭贤么？！
我会喜欢一个人，多半是先看性格，过后看才华，再看样貌。三样俱全的圭贤，我怎能不爱呢?

呵呵— 当然我也开始很喜欢SUJU了啦，可是圭贤依然拍第一啊~ 无论是SJ还是SJ-M，加上周觅和Henry这15位男生，我超爱圭贤，不过另外14个也当然不会忽略啦~ 反而，越看东海觉得他越可爱越酷越帅~ 所以佳瑜，虽然我是你的神一般的太完美情人，不过我允许你和东海的“地下情”~！啊哈~！XD

都靠圭贤的福，我接触到了很多东西，而且自己也越来越喜欢中文了~！“月亮代表我的心”这首歌，也越听越好听，就连韩国儿歌“Gom Se Mari”我也爱得不得了~！
电话里满都是SJ的东西（或许不比陈欣怡-shi、燕姐、神一般太完美情人吴佳瑜、语琳、银诗他们的多，不过本小姐在努力下载圭贤的可爱片段~ XD），刚刚在车上给妈妈看到一个圭贤扮可爱然后害羞的录影，我妈看了都觉得他可爱~！哇哈哈！成就感~ :P

嗯哪嗯哪，还有就是SJ的Mini Drama，好多“Bromance”，萌死我~！圭贤你太帅了！还有艺声+利旭keopeul好可爱哦—！哇哈哈！笑死我~！还有一个叫Flowerboys，可怜的帅哥们被泼糞呀—— 呀圭贤，还好那个Mini Drama你不在~ (><)

我的动漫派partners们，听着哦！我会痴圭贤不代表我会把动漫都忽略掉呀~！毕竟动漫是我的灵魂、我的根~！动漫把我树立成今天的我，我绝对不会如忘掉豆皮的小豆！（哇，好直接的翻译~~ XD）更何况啊，我是1/4韩血，1/4和血，一次喜欢动漫帅哥又喜欢韩国帅哥并不是不可能哦~ 哎哎，毕竟我是非凡的女人嘛—— （对不，Lee Michelle? XD）

“……”

啮~~ 不知我说我是1/4韩血、1/4和血有谁会信呢？你们信么？XD

好啦，不要多说了~

哦呀！告诉你们个好消息~！ 我的Physics进步啊，多么一个美好的奇迹~
哎哎，神一般的我……真的太神了~！XD （呜哇~~神一般的自恋啊~ 哈哈！）

还有，那天我生日，我们的圭贤二号（Shun）通过FB message祝我生日快乐啊—— 虽然不是正版圭贤，也还是圭贤二号~ <3 请给我暗爽一下下啦~ :P

Ok 啦，打字都打得累了~
再一次祝我们神一般的陈欣怡一个神一般快乐的生日~！
Saengilchuka, 陈欣怡-shi~~! <3
希望我也可以成为像你一样忠实的SJ迷 (哈哈！）~！
前辈请多多指教~！

1/2 4Sc1 Holiday Practice~

A 3 min 27 second video of a few of us during the practice on the holiday Monday~

A DAY TO REMEMBER~! <3

"Won't you be my sweetest dream for life?"

有美琪，有团结……

温馨是灿烂的笑……

ELF团 + 颜慧玉

May Jee during the practice on Monday

It's the start of August, and I've recently turned 16~ Aside from discovering my new found passion for archery (thanks to bestie Jessie Tan), I've gathered quite a few depressed emotions of low self-esteem and paranoia of being alone... However, I won't get to that cause I'm quite cured now, thanks to Nii-sama who was there for me when I was this close to an emotional breakdown...

August, Summer, a hot, busy month. Exams are enclosing (not that I'm doing much to face it), a lot of classes to attend, a lot of homework to be done (I don't sleep earlier than 12am anymore~) and then there's... Gema Patriotik.

We've had Gema Patriotik for 2 years now. Aside from it taking up a lot of my time and effort, whether it's victory of loss, I felt distant enough from the class to not care. When it's over, it's over. And there's no way we'd be able to sing something in tune, we've NEVER done that for the past two years~ I always thought Gema Patriotik would be one of those things that didn't mean anything... It's one of those activities a school holds for no purposeful reason... I, honestly, never liked it... And why would I think otherwise this year, right?

We started practicing for Gema 2 weeks before the actual competition (which is actually TODAY) but really only started intense practice 1 week before today~ During the start, I seriously, hated it. Because again, it took my time and energy, and with the homework load mountain high lately, I didn't need any extra time taken from me... I practiced, for sure. People CAN sing unhappy, and I am one of those people...
This went on for days and days, Math period, Bio period, any extra time they can find, we practice. Well, it's not like I was reluctant every time, sure to me it was something I needed to do because THEY wanted to, but when there's no homework to be done, I really don't mind skipping lessons for Gema Patriotik. May Jee would be guiding us with all her might, coaching us, coming up with ideas for us to perform. She'd crack jokes, and do really ridiculous, funny stuff. Mm, that is expected from her, since she's always cheerful and full of life~ She was the kind of person who shines into your heart and leaves a ray of light. This might sound sentimental, but it really is true. Because every time she does something, I sense "original MayJee-ness" and that makes me want to smile. XD

She came up with so many great ideas, some even too big for us to handle. XD
Whether she got inspiration from cheerleading, choral speaking, Glee, anything! She made sure it was comfortable for all of us. She listened to our opinions wholeheartedly, and had all of us decide what was best for the performance. It wasn't just "her way", it was OUR WAY~  Why did she spend so much time doing so many stuff for us when we've pretty much given up hearing how great 4Sc2 were? Hmm, and then I realized just how special she was, and how special she could make this year be, since with so many opinions from so many people, it was gonna be a fusion of 40++ people, it was really an ORIGINAL "OUR WAY" ~ The 4Sc1 Way~ And then I thought to myself : "This is the way it's supposed to be."
I gradually made myself open up, and I tried to help as much as I can, considering how much a jerk I've always been (><). I was clear how little help I was, yet I really wanted to make this thing happen! True, it could be that up until today my contribution is the size of a peanut, and I DO feel guilty about it, but truly... the times during practice were beautiful~ Everyone supported each other and hmm, it actually did bring us together, me + Shi Yee + Hui Ru I mean~ You see sides of people you've never known, and for all you know, you'd like them even more for it.. At least, it's like that for me, I really do like Shi Yee and Hui Ru very much! (><) I gradually opened up further and helped May Jee with the parody (Teenage Dream), considering I can only do that much (^^")... But the others were opening up and helping too... like that Monday (a public holiday), when all of us (actually 20++ of us) came to school for practice~ (like in the photos)

Did you see the photos? Did you see what kind of person she is? To have us all listening attentively, to have us oblige to by will? Did you see the smiles on our faces? May Jee was that special a girl...and the only reason I took those photos was because I wanted to remember such happy times, and remember, "Wow, this girl changed my perception of Gema Patriotik~!" It's true that being with them, 4Sc1, makes you feel such indescribable happiness and acceptance. Hmm, and I'm beginning to accept that...with the right people, Gema  Patriotik ain't half bad~ ( > 3<)

Anyway, today was the competition... We came to school at 6a.m., although I did reach several minutes late (I do suffer from insomnia and I'm tired...) And do you know how many people reached around that time too...? 20++ people. How did 20 people find the resolve to come to school at such an early time for practice? Who does that??? (^^) People like us, of course, those who felt that connection and the happiness of teamwork... We practiced for a long time... though it all still seemed imperfect, it was almost time for competition, and so we made our way to the front of 3A5... One by one the classes performed, and we came closer to the platform and stage~

The time came when we made our way to the stage (which Nii-sama claims as his 2nd home). We looked to the left the whole time before receiving orders from Xian Wei to turn... 1,2 turn! We turned, faced the audience, and gained a round of applause?! Mwo?!?! Jinja?!?! Seriously, we haven't done anything yet!
We bowed, looked up, supposedly at the audience, but all of us know our eyes were fixed on our awesome conductor Seah Zhen Hong, whose talent has been recognised OVER AND OVER ~ ! It's true, I didn't realize until I got down from stage, but the whole time I was on stage, I couldn't tell who was in the audience, because I was only looking at the conductor. The anxiety, was so great, you wouldn't want to see anybody but him... We all put our faith in him, after all... (^^)

He brought us to the high pitches and low pitches with flawless tempo (although we were somewhat... flawful~ XD), and managed to get us to do everything so ... "harmoniously"~ Whether it was "Tanggal 31" itself, or the "Teenage Dream Parody" (which really caught others' attention XD), or "We <3 Malaysia" parts~ We were like targeting guns, locking our eyes on him, and he brought us there, just like all of us wanted to... It's like we're in practice again, and we knew that all we had to do was trust him... When he asked us to smile, nobody can defy, because we knew and we remembered, that we trust him, after all... NOTHING CAN GO WRONG with Zhen Hong as conductor (^^).

Things went better than expected, and before we knew it, our performance was over. And when we got an applause right after the end, it just made us all the more satisfied with ourselves, knowing we grabbed some attention and earned some of it to the finish... Right then, I dunno what I felt, but it was as though there was warmth in the heart, and your face feels so light you can wear a smile for hours~ You felt like launching your arms to hug your friends... That kind of happiness and satisfaction... Where did it come from? To be this happy before even knowing the results, it's ridiculous, but it is a happiness never felt before...

The smiles stayed on our faces for the whole day, and the weather was so nice it was like a gift to complement our feelings~ Pictures and memories were captured and taken, some engraved into the heart... My heart, at least.

If I were with any other, it's most unlikely to feel such happiness...
4Sc1, thanks so much for giving me a whole new life-changing experience~

Who would have thought, teamwork, modesty and a little bit of faith could push us so far, and make us feel so satiated?

Let's fight till the very end together,
HWAITING~!