Hello To Myself

Hello, this is February 2012, a very cold winter
Where are you? How close are you to the dream I wanted so bad?
Here, I'm still falling and crying again 
I'm hurt and tired and have no strength to get up
But you would probably see me and smile 


Hello to myself, Hello to myself
Will you comfort me, saying "don't cry"?
Hello to myself, Hello to myself
Will you tell me that I can do it?
Hello ~ Hello ~ 
Don't cry
Hello ~ Hello ~
Get up


How are you? How is it to fulfill your dream?
Doesn't it hurt when you pinch yourself?
Or is it sometimes boring because it's a become a normal routine for you?
If you ever get lonely and tired
Will you remember me who used to dream here?


Hello to myself, Hello to myself,
Will you think of me here and smile?
Hello to myself, Hello to myself,
Will you be happy to the point where your heart overflows?
Hello ~ Hello ~
Smile
Hello ~ Hello ~
Just like that


Hello to myself, Hello to myself...
Will you think of me here and smile?
Hello to myself, Hello to myself...
Will you not forget me who used to dream?


Hello, this is February 2012, a very cold winter...


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"Hello" to the 17-year-old writing this
She's just an ordinary girl.
She has big dreams kept secret in that little heart
passionate dreams that overflow


No one knows that innocent dream of hers
and the tears she has to down
when she knows she can't get closer
cause her smile is all that their eyes can see


Hello to myself, Hello to myself
do you still hate looking in the mirror?
Hello to myself, Hello to myself
does it still remind you all you can't be?
Hello~ Hello~
Please don't cry
Hello~ Hello~
Just keep tryin'


"How are you?"
When people look at you and look away,
does your heart still hurt as much?
Like a star fallen from the sky and into the sea
can it still shine like it did?


The hurtful things they say that get you down
the times when they keep getting in your way


Hello to myself, Hello to myself
Just cry when you want to, it's just easy
Hello to myself, Hello to myself
If you shine bright enough, you'll be okay
Hello ~ Hello ~
Please just smile
Hello ~ Hello ~
Just like that


Hello to myself, Hello to myself...
Please smile when you see me in your memory
Hello to myself, Hello to myself...
Please promise me that you'll be okay


"Hello" to the 17-year-old writing this
A star just shining dimly...

123 : My BEAUTIFUL TARGET，My MEMORIES

Annyeong world~!

Just got back from 123! 123?
Ye! December 3rd, day of the MO.A! MO.A?
MOST AMAZING 2011, a concert held by CJ Entertainment of South Korea and some company in Malaysia la, presenting Miss A, f(x) and my princes Super Junior and my flower boys B1A4 ! 
And you know something else? It's my first time in a live concert !


The procedure was like shit, the whole process my mum was mad at me, but then I love her cause she let me go! XD


I went with Yeonnie, reached the stadium really early, and waited like crazy outside, VERY HOT~
There was like a "K-POP Night Market", selling Super Junior, B1A4, Miss A and f(x) merchandise, for a bloody high price. I call it... "Pasar Malam K-Pop" XD There was gonna be like a few hours before the gates to the stadium open, and so we loitered around looking at merchandise, saw really really high quality Super Junior merchandise, including fans, files, books etc etc, was gonna buy a fan (because it's really hot there) with uli Kyuhyun on it, but when I asked the price, she said "RM40", I was like "Huh?". It was painful, but I was thinking, there's no bloody way a fan costs RM40 (Ｔ～Ｔ)
so I didn't buy it. 
Walked to several other stalls, bought 2 shirts instead, 1 for RM35 but I bargained 2 for RM60 (^.~). 1 B1A4 printed and the other with MO.A print on it~ Both black. Since the other fan was so expensive, I got another fan for RM10. The picture wasn't as nice as the RM40 wan la, but who cares! Super Junior's still handsome! Uli wangja, saranghae~!

Can you tell who are on the key chains?

So we finished shopping and went to wait at the gates. We didn't line up, we just squeezed into the line when the gate opened. Too much physical contact with the other people, it smells horrible. Can die... 
Our place was a bit further from the stage, but the view is good. You get to see all 3 screens, and also you can see them performing on stage. The people in front had numbered seating so nobody blocked us. You can see the performers head to toe, but it really was too far to touch them (TT~TT) I'm small, so I managed to squeeze to the front. We saw the vans, I meant SUVs which drove Super Junior and the others here, OMO, felt so excited! They're only like a few metres away! OMO! 

The first performance was from Miss A. I wasn't really interested (no offence) so I was walking around, trying to see if I can get to the front, near the stage. Bloody hell, so many "RELA" at the side (==) so I changed my mind, then I had to squeeze from the back to the front. By the time I found Yeonnie, Miss A's performance was about to end and then B1A4! AH~!~! Their first song was "Beautiful Target", omo they so cute! Nae salang GongChan changed his hairstyle ad! You're so handsome right now! Salanghae~! After that song, they introduced themselves, in English!!! They were the only ones who spoke in English the whole time! OMO, so thoughtful! 

"I'm B1A4's leader (I swear I heard 'weader' XD), JinYoung."

"Apa khabar? I'm cute face, Gongchan." <3 

Neol salanghae, Gongchan! 

(left to right) GongChan, JinYoung, Baro, Sandeul, CNU

Channie~ <3

(I wonder what this part was, GongChan and CNU)

Seriously, love Channie so much~ <3

"I'm super duper rapper Baro, baby" *many people scream* XD

After that, we heard "My Love", "O.K", and "Only Learned Bad Things" ! And their classic sprout dance, LIVE! XD OMO, in front of my eyes!


And then f(x), I didn't scream so much. I rested, for closing act Super Junior! OMO! 
"Super Man", their first song was Super Man! Ah! Opening act so sat! After Super Man, they continued with A-CHa, and then Mr Simple. We saw Eunhyuk do his handstand live, wow! Their intro was so cute! Especially Yesung's and Leeteuk's! XD 

Ryeowook spoke Chinese! Yesung's intro was so cute! 


"Yesung: Apa khabar?!
Yesung: Apa khabar?!!
Yesung: Apa khabar~! *voice cracked* 
And then from the huge screen, we saw his awkward face, and he mumbled his name XD
Yesung-oppa, gwiyeop!


Donghae spoke accurate Malay!


Leeteuk's intro was also great!
Leeteuk: "Assalamualaikum~~~~~~ Nama saya..."
Audience: "Leeteuk!!!"
Leeteuk: "Nama saya...?"
Audience: "Leeteuk!!!!!!!!"
Leeteuk: "Nama saya...??"
Audience: "Leeteuk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Leeteuk: " XD Leeteuk, bingo~"
XD Omo, gwiyeop!!!


After all that intro, Yesung sung a solo ‘It Has To Be You", and halfway through he walked to the runway, and then from the screen, we saw clearly he was teary-eyed (T^T). I also almost cry. He looked so handsome walking down the runway, I love him so much! (T^T)

After Yesung's solo, I forgot what came after, I think it was "Memories".We also heard a beautiful "Marry You", all 9 of SuJu walked down the runway and threw towels to the fans, walao! WALAO! (T^T) They wipe their sweat and throw to the fans walao! I wanted to cry ah since I was so far from the runway (T^T)~ Leeteuk shook hands with a fan lagi... He also sat on the edge of the stage. My heart aches... (T^T)
Then later they sang "Bonamana", Leeteuk said "Malaysia has a lot of beautiful girls. You will like our next performance, Bonamana!" (btw, this is translated by the translator). And their last song, was "Sorry, Sorry"! 


The performance ended with all of them coming out to the stage. Lucky for me, cause me and Yeonnie were like pleading for B1A4 to come back out. "Omo, B1A4 come back out!!!"

The performance ended, was gonna leave when I suddenly saw people crowding near backstage, so me and Yeonnie ran in the mud (==) towards the same destination, and because we're small, we can easily squeeze pass through everyone XD. I wasn't that front, but in between 2 ppl from the first row, so I got a clear view too :P Yeonnie was stuck and cramped behind me. I swear, in the midst all that hoo haa, someone stepped on my shoe! Eesh! But anyway, saw Siwon sleeveless while he was going up to the SUV and he walked in our direction! EXACTLY OUR DIRECTION and waved goodbye to the E.L.Fs. He couldn't get too close because of the mean crew people (T^T). The girls started shouting "Siwon" over and over, some said "Oppa, saranghae" and everything, then later we started chanting loudly "SS4" LOLz! We also saw Kyuhyun and Donghae (><) ~ They really look so much better in the flesh, photos and videos do them NO JUSTICE!


As for B1A4, I nearly got a picture of CNU and JinYoung as they were outside waving to the fans before leaving, but some bloody person pushed me, and all I got was a blurry picture! Damn! And I tried to take the others' picture too, but there was this girl RELA who went and block my camera, and I was already stuck in the crowd! With such a front view, why would I wanna move!?
After that I saw someone holding out a rose from the window of B1A4's SUV, I couldn't see who it was because he's on the opposite side of my view. As they left, we got to see Sandeul (B1A4) waving in our direction with a rose in the other hand, CNU was next to him, and then "bye bye". Super Junior's SUV curtains were closed so we couldn't see anyone inside.  

My mum waited outside and took videos of the SUV! Apparently, nobody could look into SuJu's van because the curtains were closed, but my mum caught one of the girls on video and she spoke to a lucky fan! The crew stopped them again, damn those crew people! I wonder if the one talking to her fan was a Miss A or if it was f(x)'s Victoria. The others are Korean anyway, how in the world would they wanna converse? (=.=)

Argh! After that I went out to the "Pasar Malam K-Pop" and went around trying to find something to buy. A lot of new merchandise were brought out but damn, they're so expensive! So I bought nothing. 

After that I went to spend the night in my relative's house, and today I realized... I should've stayed in One World Hotel! That's where Super Junior and B1A4 were! DAMN, DAMN, DAMN!!! (T^T)

All in all, I finally know how Ann and the others felt when they attended SJ-M's concert the other day! It feels great, seriously, meeting them live is better than any other video! They look so much better in the flesh that all the videos and photos do them no justice! Seriously, they were so close. To think we were under the same cloudy, dark sky that night! To think they were within reach! It all feels way to surreal. They were speaking OUR language, they were singing to US, they could've seen US! Really, omg...

123 MO.A, was my Beautiful Target, and it's now one my Memories~ 

Super Junior, salanghae!

B1A4, salanghae!

Uli wangja,

Uli kkotminam, 

I LOVE YOU !!!!!!

You made my first concert so meaningful !
Hangsang komawo!!!

生活这件小事…

一般的戏剧：

少女不漂亮、不能干，无比平凡。

少女爱上绝伦美少年。

少女变得漂亮；少年喜欢上了少女。

快乐结局…

可是现实真的那么美好么？

若把我生活拍成一部电影

我想剧情应该不同凡响吧？

我

虽然是混血儿，样貌确实和别人不太一样，

却不漂亮。

若想说能干，也似乎有什么不对经~

我

喜欢上他，却往往不被注意。

即使他注意到我，也只把我当好朋友看待。

我

一脸不屑，

看似坚强，

却其实一点安全感都没有。

我

被人羡慕，

“你眼睛很漂亮啊～”

“你眼睫毛很长啊～”

“你成绩很好啊～”

“你朋友都对你真好啊～”

但这几句仰慕中，到底哪个是幻觉，哪个是事实？

我这是在谦虚吗？还是在小看我自己？

才没有。

这一切都是事实呢。

我并不是在埋怨。

我早就适应了这样。

不漂亮没关系。

无才干没关系。

没人喜欢没关系。

没人关心没关系。

麻木了，习惯了，都不会疼了。

我是独生女，

习惯沉默，

习惯孤独，

但也不代表我喜欢这种寂寞。

反而，

我应该很渴望别人的陪伴才对吧？

毕竟一个人的世界里没有可以依靠的人

是多么恐怖的感觉~

有时候呢，会时常安慰自己，

我这样告诉自己：

“人会随着时间改变的，总有一天你也变给大家看好了~”

这样算是我硬撑吧？

偶尔也会想，

如果命运是安排我一辈子孤独，那么早点习惯也好。

我性格又怪癖，脾气坏，

要找一个能陪我的人，哈！多么难找啊，真麻烦！

哎，还是算了吧。

长得丑没人要，

性格怪癖也没人要，

与其让人反感，早点接受事实也好！

。。。。。。

而这事实，虽然有点痛，我还是接受了。

丑不是罪啊，

笨也不是罪，

不完美…也不是罪。

只是不幸而已。

那一个星期五，

上了补习课之后，

大家纷纷都回家了。

妈妈还在上班，所以迟点才来接我。

老师，是我爸的同学，

他没有儿女，所以把我像女儿一样看待。

他对我说：

“喜欢一个人有什么不对？

被拒绝了又有什么不对？

你怎么能知道没有人喜欢你？

因为最喜欢你的人，往往就是最静的那一个。

因为太喜欢你，他会害怕，害怕被你拒绝，

因此，他选择把喜欢你的这个秘密藏在他心里，

他根本就不会告诉你…

一直到30年后的那一次团聚，

那个时候你们都有了各自的家庭，

那个时候他会告诉你，30年前他多么喜欢你，

可是错过了，

或许会有点后悔，可是最痛的回忆其实是最珍贵的经验，

因为在你最痛的时候，

你学到了最重要的东西。”

我仿佛看见他眼里的一抹泪光，

害得我也差点哭出来了。

明明这些话不是对我说的，

这些话，是安慰他自己而说出来的，

怎么我也好像得到了安慰？

“你还记得那天在Jusco见面么？”

我笑。

“那个时候我看见了最漂亮的你~”

我傻。“哈？”

“很漂亮很可爱的你，并不是因为穿着、修饰，而是你如何真实。你是个很特别的女孩。”

我愣。我那一天在Jusco做了什么，我已经完全不记得了，

而我也不明白他当天从我身上看到了什么，

不过这番话都让我很高兴，

即使是安慰的话也罢…

“如果我现在16岁，和你同校，我一定会很喜欢上学。

若和你同班，只注意你也能快乐~”

我…抑制了自己的泪。

我不知道他是否注意到我的泪光，不过这个不重要。

（哈哈，当时不敢哭，现在写部落格却在飙泪~！）

这泪水，

到底是为什么我不知道。

是希望吧，

因为我这丑女都会有最漂亮的时候。

是欣慰吧，

因为我可能…是个特别的存在。

是幸福吧，

因为我的美，是内在的，永不褪色。

世界上没有十全十美的人，

你看扁我不比其他女生漂亮也好，

你闲我笨、没用也好…

我以后才看怎么收拾你。XD

不过现在，

我知道我不能取代任何人，但也没有人能取代我。

我们都是独一无二的存在，没有人能和我们一样，

所以告别才会那么困难~

你了解了…生活这件小事么? 

感情这件小事 ~

你可知道，

惹了他

和

伤了他

的区别？

惹了他，

他或许会生气，

可是回到家，

洗个舒服的泡泡澡、

拼命挖一汤匙一汤匙的雪糕往嘴里不停地塞、

把枕头想象成你不停捶打着，

一直到晚上依然还在大发雷霆，

情不自禁在半夜时分拨打了死党的号码，不停向他埋怨着……

你可知道，

他之所以会那么生气是因为他一直在想你？

想着如何面对你？

想着如何弥补？

想他能做什么、

想他能对你说什么，

之所以会生气是因为在乎……

惹了一个人，就像个气球一样，

充满怒气灵魂无法平静下来，总在各种地方飘游寻找坠身之地，

随着时间的流逝，怒气慢慢消失，就像缓缓收缩的无气气球，

渐渐从天空落下，最后再着地……

惹了一个人，还有机会返回往昔的快乐，

因为在乎你，

你不需要说对不起，

他也能原谅你。

因为在乎你，

是他说“对不起”，

“那时在你面前发脾气。”

因为在乎你，

他能一切都忘掉，

笑着面对你。

*** 

我曾经也是这样吧……

因为在乎而可以让你自由，

因为害怕是自己想了太多，

因为害怕是自己毛病太多，

因为我或许没有资格，

我保持沉默，

什么都不说。

到最后，

受伤的是我……

***

伤了他，

他会笑着对身边人说

“没事”
那脆弱的声音，

不知是在肯定

还是在安慰自己……

即使他的心在滴血，

他会笑着对你，

即使他的笑是一部戏，

也要为你演得最好。

此伤毫无解药，

伴着每滴血的笑容只是他的面具。

四周的人只蔑视他的笑，

看到的是快乐，

但若他们能在看他多一眼，

或许就会察觉到他微笑后的忧伤。

他会忍耐，

即使自己再痛，他会硬撑，

他之所以不哭，是因为尝试坚强。

有一天，你会想他，

可他为了保护自己，

却忘了你。

就像死亡后投胎，

他会重新开始，

就像刚出世的赤子

找到属于他的快乐。

他想不再被伤害，

所以他学会武装自己，

就像玫瑰一样，

清纯却又充满荆刺。

“对不起”

会否赢得他的原谅，

只能看他生活还能不能选择宽容，

但我知道，

“对不起”

揭穿不了他的武装，

或许是他的坚强，

也或许是他心中那无法消失的伤。

***

惹了他，是一个短暂的回忆，

伤了他却是永恒的伤痕。

惹了他和伤了他的区别，

就是这样。

让人生气的事情能忘记，

抛在后头，不再回头，迈向前走。

让人流泪的事情能尝试忘记，能尝试封闭，

就像在吃止痛药，

麻醉，但伤痕却一直都在。

不公平，

因为我没流泪，我就是坏人。

而她留了泪，她就是受害者。

对，现在我的确是坏人，

因为让她哭了，是我的错。

是我的错，

因为不曾告诉她我现在变成这样子的理由。

我自私，我无情，我是坏人我知道！

可在我受伤的事候，

有谁在乎？

因为我没流泪，我的伤就不够重是不是？

因为我是寂寞孤单的我什么都不说

因为我尝试坚强我不想哭

你们把我看成坏人，你们知道什么？

我忍了多久你们知道吗？

我撑了多久你们知道吗？

让她哭，我错。

不告诉她，我错。

但别说我没忍过，

更别说我不会谅解。

我不要她改变，我才什么都不说，

我想改变的是我自己，往往就改变不了。

这样无声的告别，

只能使她哭一次，

哭过了便能忘掉，忘掉便能适应…

为了我自己，这是必不得已，

剩下来能说得只有谢谢你，

对不起。

初恋这件小事 ~ ♥

少女长得不是很漂亮，

平凡得不起眼~ 

混在众星捧月的校花群众，

感觉是多么的渺小。

少年是灿烂的美男，

笑起来能翻天覆地。

无论何时都是校花的焦点，

当然少女也不例外。

少女爱上少年，

引来的是笑容还是泪水？

。。。

一味地注视着踢球的他，

却有几个人会注意到看台那儿的少女？

从他教室门口经过，

往教室里迅速瞟一眼，

看见他发呆的样子，他的睡样，

仅此而已，

心里就足以欣喜。

课外活动——

要参加什么学会才能多见到他？

怎么让他意识到少女的存在？

放学，该何时离开教室才能与他擦肩而过？

不巧，

看见扭伤脚的“白美媚”骑在他摩托车后座，

心里的嫉妒燃烧，

生活又多了个情敌~

少年送的百事，

贴上“禁止饮用”，

放进冰箱内冷藏。

少年为少女逞英雄，

受了伤，

少女递给少年伤痛药，

少年叫了一声少女的名字，

“谢谢你”，

少女的心情飘到九霄云外，

“学长知道我的名字！”

偷了少年的电话号码初次拨打过去，

仅是听见他从话筒传来的声音

心里便会小路乱撞，

到屋外兴奋地尖叫了，

回来听电话，少年却挂了。

号码输进手机

点了"call"

点了“cancel”

觉得自己永远都不会通这电话，

也不会发一条短信，

总觉得自己在他面前是丑陋的……

。。。

心里无论如何都无法放弃对他的爱慕~

说放弃怎么可能？

尤其是少年从芒果树上降下来的时候，

怀中抱着小猫，

现身于少女面前，问她：
“要芒果么？”

说完便把小猫送到母猫怀抱~

遇到这样的少年，

怎么可能忘记？

这样的他提醒了少女，

想成为一个更好的人。

“再美一点他就会注意我了吧？”
“再好一点他可能会喜欢我。”

时间一天一天过去，

少女努力变成了更好的人，

漂亮了，

能干了，

却往往变成最孤独的人。

当少女知道，她可能再也不能跟他说话，

再也不能每天见到他，

甚至听说，

他和那漂亮的学姐在一起，

那一瞬间，少女依然在逞强，

没有意识到自的泪水已经不受控制淋满了脸，

于是少女觉自己想要拼一次，

即使把自己踩在脚底，

也要告诉他
“我喜欢你”

告诉他从开始的时候，

从最开始见到少年的时候，

少女就喜欢他了。

他望着少女，

她甚至不敢直视他的眼睛，

说好多她想告诉他的话，

屏着呼吸等着他的答案……

因为我喜欢你，

喜欢一个人才会做出这些小事情。

如果生活是一部戏，

会有几个人得到童话般的结局呢？

就算结局不美好，

在我们每个人的内心深处都藏了个人。

每次想起他，

或许会心痛，

但我们仍然愚蠢地想把他，

这片回忆、这段故事、这首情歌藏在心里。

无论是喜剧、悲剧；

活泼的情歌还是忧郁的哀悼歌，

就算是以后不知道他在哪里，在做什么，还记不记得我，

至少他让我知道

初恋这件小事~ ♥

"神一般" Confession

Annyeong~! (^^)

Oh how long has it been since I last updated my blog??? I have so many things to say right now~! But before that...

SAENGILCHUKA, TAN SHI YEE-SHI~!

1st, I'll start with 'Gema Patriotik"~!
We made it through to the finals~!
However, due to the exams, we had little time to prepare for it, and by little time, I mean only 4 days~
It was a really, erm, nerve-racking time for us because we had to think of everything and get it perfect in 4 days~ We made use of weekends, spending at least 4 hours everyday at Justin's kindergarten practicing and rehearsing~
We used the "Teenage Dream" parody during the preliminary rounds and we know that now that it's finals we have to do something dynamic~ But how dynamic can we get when we only have 4 days of practice? And how much more dynamic can we be if were to compare ourselves to 4Sc2, and the other classes who had professional training and care~ In our hearts, we secretly thought to ourselves......

WE'RE SO FREAKING DOOMED~!

We may have been discouraged and stressed-out due to all the talented contenders that can take us out, but during the times we rehearsed, there was one thing we know we didn't lack at all ......

LAUGHTER~~~~~~

Every rehearsal was filled with laughter and support... and everything we did we did it with HEART <3 ~


The songs we chose were those we can relate to personality wise, we chose songs we'd be interested to sing in, and our closing act was a Disney movie's :
Demi Lovato's "We Can't Back Down" from Camp Rock~ 
We trained the hand signs and everything, and after receiving feedback and opinions from various people, including Tze Hao, Hwee Yee and Xin Een, we managed to make it all the more dynamic and patriotic <3 May Jee also thought of a formation which we had to bravely take the initiative to make the 1st step, with May Jee leading us solo,  and me and Xin Een to come out later~


Training was fun, we were still intimidated by the others, so I'm pretty sure we gave it all we got just to make it on stage... For everyone knows what a disaster we were during the "raptai" (sorry, I forgot what it's called in English~)


The day of the competition came and we arrived at school at 6am to prepare~ The others also looked really good, and when they were on stage they were great too. We were intimidated and nervous, but we knew we had to do our best, and remember that,
"Hey, maybe the others are better than we are, but I bet we had a more meaningful and happy time rehearsing than they did~!"  It came to a stage where we consoled ourselves with these happy memories we're so proud of, it came to a stage where we thought winning didn't matter, because we won each other in the process~ A sentimental bond was formed between the hearts of 4Sc1~ (^^)


Time flew by, we were 4th to perform~ Everyone was still nervous, and it also turned out pretty ugly because all of us couldn't find the tempo to the song. However, when we sang without music, hey, we sounded awesome and we had fun~! I don't wanna brag but, there are pretty good singers in 4Sc1. May Jee, Xin Een, Kah Kit, and even Rui Yuan was great (^^) ~! The others hardly sang off tune as well~ I'm so proud of you guys~!


Our surprise was the closing act, "We Can't Back Down". After opinions from everyone, we changed the lyrics into more patriotic ones, and fortunately enough I brought the Malaysian flag to enhance the feeling of the song~ MayJee led our pyramid formation, being the first to step out, followed by Xin Een and I, and the rest of the 1st row~ There came to a point where we looked like we were in a music video XD, and there was that part where we "hentak kaki" and "hormat" at the last note~ When I looked into XinYi's recording of our perfomance, I saw that everyone did it so magnificently and according to tempo that OMG, we looked like GLEE CLUB~! (>v<) Some told me that they were shaking when they saluted the audience, but MayJee claimed to have felt satisfaction, and I felt the same, putting on a broad smile at the end of our performance~ We also sang another song "Down" when we wanted to put our hands down and bowed at the last note~
YES~! We were satisfied~! We may not be as great as the others, but hey, do you know what it feels like to put on a show for you guys only after 4 days of practice?! Some even call this INSANE~! (^^)


When they announced the results, we were disappointed that Zhen Hong didn't win the "Best Conductor" award, because he was awesome in our eyes~ Several teachers were surprised too~ And sure we're still not happy about it right now, but hey, we're 16 years old and we don't keep little things at heart~
When they announced 3rd place to 2A2, we felt a little surprised because when we heard them rehearse, they seemed to have the most variety of vocals~ Going as far as giving us a super-high-pitched-soprano-like "Kita Satu Malaysia" ~ So we were kinda surprised.
We were even more surprised when 4Sc2 came 2nd, because they were obviously, more crowd-pleasing than we were (^^). And to tell you the truth, anyone in their right mind would have felt sorry for us because even we knew 4Sc2 did so much a good job compared to us~ We were like, despaired because if 4Sc2 is 2nd, where do we place? I went as far as considering Form 1 and Form 2 as the champions...


My tears burst out...
WHEN WE HEARD WE CAME 1ST~! I don't know why but I just couldn't stop it, I tried, but it didn't work~! It's like my faucet leaked (><) ~ And then that Sim Zheng Yee ar, recorded me crying for so long I didn't even notice...
Dear God... (= =) My image (>.<) That was the 1st time I ever cried tears of joy~ Oh boy~ What is wrong with me...


We were even happier during English Period because Miss Tan claimed that our "We Can't Back Down" made her cry~ We didn't understand why~ Maybe it's because we tried so hard, or maybe we poured feelings into our closing act... I just dunno... But it's great that our performance reached to someone and touched them...because honestly, all we thought we were doing was making fools out of ourselves (>.<)


And that's the end of the Gema Patriotik 2011, a memory that will forever be in our hearts~ (^^)


2nd, I'm in <3 with SUJU ar~!


Got pretty bored lately, so I went on Youtube watching variety shows, like 强心脏、综艺大哥大、黄金舞台 etc etc~ 过后就看到了圭贤超可爱的一幕啊~！看到什么我猜你猜的“蚌壳精”，他那个容易害羞，却又很努力的性格真的害我倾心了啦—！我也是名副其实会喜欢上有才华帅哥的女生，所以你说我会放过圭贤么？！
我会喜欢一个人，多半是先看性格，过后看才华，再看样貌。三样俱全的圭贤，我怎能不爱呢?

呵呵— 当然我也开始很喜欢SUJU了啦，可是圭贤依然拍第一啊~ 无论是SJ还是SJ-M，加上周觅和Henry这15位男生，我超爱圭贤，不过另外14个也当然不会忽略啦~ 反而，越看东海觉得他越可爱越酷越帅~ 所以佳瑜，虽然我是你的神一般的太完美情人，不过我允许你和东海的“地下情”~！啊哈~！XD

都靠圭贤的福，我接触到了很多东西，而且自己也越来越喜欢中文了~！“月亮代表我的心”这首歌，也越听越好听，就连韩国儿歌“Gom Se Mari”我也爱得不得了~！
电话里满都是SJ的东西（或许不比陈欣怡-shi、燕姐、神一般太完美情人吴佳瑜、语琳、银诗他们的多，不过本小姐在努力下载圭贤的可爱片段~ XD），刚刚在车上给妈妈看到一个圭贤扮可爱然后害羞的录影，我妈看了都觉得他可爱~！哇哈哈！成就感~ :P

嗯哪嗯哪，还有就是SJ的Mini Drama，好多“Bromance”，萌死我~！圭贤你太帅了！还有艺声+利旭keopeul好可爱哦—！哇哈哈！笑死我~！还有一个叫Flowerboys，可怜的帅哥们被泼糞呀—— 呀圭贤，还好那个Mini Drama你不在~ (><)

我的动漫派partners们，听着哦！我会痴圭贤不代表我会把动漫都忽略掉呀~！毕竟动漫是我的灵魂、我的根~！动漫把我树立成今天的我，我绝对不会如忘掉豆皮的小豆！（哇，好直接的翻译~~ XD）更何况啊，我是1/4韩血，1/4和血，一次喜欢动漫帅哥又喜欢韩国帅哥并不是不可能哦~ 哎哎，毕竟我是非凡的女人嘛—— （对不，Lee Michelle? XD）

“……”

啮~~ 不知我说我是1/4韩血、1/4和血有谁会信呢？你们信么？XD

好啦，不要多说了~

哦呀！告诉你们个好消息~！ 我的Physics进步啊，多么一个美好的奇迹~
哎哎，神一般的我……真的太神了~！XD （呜哇~~神一般的自恋啊~ 哈哈！）

还有，那天我生日，我们的圭贤二号（Shun）通过FB message祝我生日快乐啊—— 虽然不是正版圭贤，也还是圭贤二号~ <3 请给我暗爽一下下啦~ :P

Ok 啦，打字都打得累了~
再一次祝我们神一般的陈欣怡一个神一般快乐的生日~！
Saengilchuka, 陈欣怡-shi~~! <3
希望我也可以成为像你一样忠实的SJ迷 (哈哈！）~！
前辈请多多指教~！

1/2 4Sc1 Holiday Practice~

A 3 min 27 second video of a few of us during the practice on the holiday Monday~

A DAY TO REMEMBER~! <3